Posts Tagged ‘Trust’

My heart skips a beat then causes knots in my stomach
My mind races and takes from me the energy I need to succeed
My hands shake more than before as I notice how much you balanced me
You held my hand

My body feels weak as it remembers who I no longer am and can no longer embrace
No lie yes my pride is hurt but I have little pride to open up to  you and just be me
I made mistakes, we made mistakes but I know I need and want to change to be your B
And I know how much you love me

My days are really hard to understand what do I do, where do I go and who can I give my happy energy to
I get lost in the moments of you being so sweet so supportive and the moments  of seeing you’re gorgeous smile, feeling your warmth and being best friends

The future I envisioned is now missing from my vision, remember I said I want to spend as much of life with you as I can! The small things the big things you have done  to support me, love me and bring me such joy all the worries would dissipate

I know what my errors were and how they continued after promises they wouldn’t. I am human as you are and we often would act or do similar things. We are a lot the same, come on we both cover our eyes during the gruesome parts of moves and TV.

No woman can compare or make me feel how important it was to have you as my girlfriend…an honor actually. I zone out on our super fun days from doing nothing to a beach far away. Then you started beating me in bowling it was still fun and our thing.

I have after searching no happier feeling than making you happy and excel in life. I want to see you fly and reach all the things you thought you couldn’t because I know you cam.

But yes love I am sad, I have to wake up without you and rush to start my day so I don’t stay in bed

They always say time will make these feelings pass. So is it wrong of me to not want them to pass, to not want to love anyone but you?

So maybe it’s you that needs to teach and help me, I’ve spent much time asking everyone but only you know. Or do I?

You know who you are and my wish is we don’t lose each other when finding each other was hard enough.

About 3 months ago I started blogging more and it’s been some very personal information, issues and emotions for a few different reasons:

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Reason 1:

Ever since the age of 9 writing in any way of poetry, rap lyrics, stories and just a few lines helped me vent and keep things private in my marble notebooks (which I still have boxes of). But the world of blogging has taught me that release through writing is good for myself as well as others that can relate and need to know they are “not alone”

Reason 2:

I wanted people to know more about me because too many people assumed I was all business and the business personality was “me” well to a degree there is truth in that but work is like acting at times and it’s all a show. I felt blogging would give me the ability to introduce more about the real me and what makes me that me.

Reason 3:

I was told I needed a hobby…so I picked one but although still kind of work related. I don’t know if I have a personal “brand” or want one but I do enjoy connecting with people around the world, getting to tell people about my friends and their accomplishments and misfortunes as well as my own and I really am always impressed with the power of people coming together via the internet.

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Music is a big inspiration for this blog and me:

I hope one day my blog becomes something people enjoy, get inspired by, create a happier and healthier outlook on life because that is what quite a few bloggers have done for me!

I don’t blog as much as professional bloggers or as well but I am learning. However I do send my “signals” out via

Twitter = @getbrice

g+ = http://goo.gl/sA7zW

My last few posts although maybe a bit confusing and maybe too intimate, they have been increasing my blog reads dramatically and I really appreciate all of you who are reading and sharing.

I have some new posts coming soon that I hope will inspire others and help us all better learn from each other and our mistakes (I have a lot of life mistakes to write about), but also the most important things that I am grateful for and bringing awareness to things that I believe more support from people who care will change and make better.

GetBrice the blog is more about life and experience yes through my own and people around me but it’s more a place I can share the honesty of my life and life in general. I hope I am accomplishing that even just a little bit. It’s also a way to talk to some special people in my life that I care about and sometimes just don’t have the right words at  the right time.

And here are 12 reasons I found on why to write:

12 reasons to write

Source: http://www.tumblr.com/tagged/writing%20rules

Best Wishes,

Brian

It seems like yesterday no wait stop

I know the past is how the future become but
There is so much I have to let go so I need to start again
Open up my heart let all thoughts come and go
I will find what I need as history and the future pass through my brain sometimes at lightening speed
So I let those thoughts pass and even get at me but the present is all I need just these moments not much more
It’s been so long and I saw all I want but I still want more
This time I have had it’s been fun but not enough
Call myself greedy then I reflect and know what I want more of what makes me happy
So here we are I needed inspiration from a source I could trust
I needed to be in someone’s arms so I could keep going strong
This is not weak I can’t be wrong it takes a smile, some care and then my mind goes on
I must admit because it’s heart it’s passion and it can’t be stopped
So tell me I can’t think this way and they are wrong it’s a good woman for me to charm
If I have someone that I can trust then she trusts me and look what I and she  can be
For all that think being this honest is too risky you’re right but I like being wrong
My dreams and what I want I will get as long as I stay this way and so do they
I keep them close because they take care of me and I got them taken care of we
As for karma I respect you sir I know I get what I deserve so bad with good but good will win
Simply because I got me first and with me you are
I speak of one and a few more the circles small and I know where I belong
So thank you to you all you know who you are

It doesn’t take very long when someone gets to know me a bit to learn I’m pretty unfiltered and honest about just about anything…I hope this is a good thing.

So recently more people are telling me I look happy, I’m smiling more.

If you remember the Patch Adams film with Robin Williams there is a great scene when he is testing and demonstrating his smile theory:

As Patch and Truman wander around smiling and greeting strangers, we as viewers smile, too.

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For some time I had been extra sensitive about letting anyone into the inner circle of me, we have all been there when someone has hurt us, betrayed us, or just turned out to not be the person we thought they were, or things just didn’t work out and the hurt that comes from this discovery. A hurt that feels like it may never go away. This is not just in a relationship it could be anything we had high hopes and expectations about and it didn’t turn out positive, things just didn’t work out.

I wasn’t sure how much time it would take or what it would take to allow me to open up and listen to my heart versus being so over protective of myself and not having the opportunity to let someone be closer to me and for me to enjoy me more. Then it happened and It was a smile!

Well that’s where it started and now is still one of the biggest reasons I have opened up to caring aout and trusting someone. I know just a smile doesn’t seem to be enough but there is more to a smile than one immediately thinks. So much more.

Her smile melted me, then her kiss opened me.

For me in the beginning it was the ability to see her smile with just a close of my eyes, then it was being able to feel the sincerity of her smile and how much more it was saying, most importantly when someone smiles and looks you in your eyes they are telling you something only meant for your eyes and heart…it’s doesn’t need to be said.  There is a special connection forming when this starts happening it’s usually when you realize you care about this person, how they feel, if they are OK  if they are happy, you want to make them happier, you want them to know you care.

I’m not saying two people need to be falling head over heels in love, could be dating, seeing each other or some other kinda label to have this connection this could be just a moment, but a moment that you want to last for as long as you choose to want to keep smiling, be happy and trust. Two people can form their own unique relationship around just being happy on each other’s personal terms and honesty no rules need apply. Just keep making each other smile inside and out.

I’m happier and I’m smiling more and happy with me and I notice other parts of my life family, friends, and work are progressing and evolving all positively. I hope it’s for the simple reason of I’m smiling and someone is smiling at me, because it can and should be that simple we don’t have to over complicate it.

My work is a major part of my life and my time so it’s usually the people I work with that pick up quickly that I wear my heart on my sleeve and I hope notice that I do this so that it defines me and I am someone who can be trusted and stand behind my words.

“You must look inside you, Sure books can guide you, But your heart defines you” Jay Z

I’m not exactly walking into meetings and anywhere with a kool-aid smile on my face…I’m smiling inside as well, that for me is when I know I’m really happy with me and feel I can accomplish so much more and give so much more of me to someone special, my loved ones, good friends and the things in life that enjoy my happiness and I look forward to making happy. This is part of my own personal definition of feeling successful.

As Mary Poppins said,  “In every job that must be done, there is an element of fun.”

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Life is work, we work to be smarter, to have more freedom, to be successful however we define success, we work to make the people we care about know how much we care, and we work on being a better us. We can choose to have fun doing this and see the fruits of our labors in our smiles and the smiles we inspire in others.

We should stay open minded and have an open heart for the smiles around us from that special someone, friends, family and total strangers and the moment that you notice the smile you can immediately feel a need to smile and feel good things in your life with that smile. Call it smile inspiration, get and give smile inspiration and good things come, anxieties and worries will go away and you get to enjoy YOU more and more.

So thank you, you know who you are bella!