Posts Tagged ‘love’

My heart skips a beat then causes knots in my stomach
My mind races and takes from me the energy I need to succeed
My hands shake more than before as I notice how much you balanced me
You held my hand

My body feels weak as it remembers who I no longer am and can no longer embrace
No lie yes my pride is hurt but I have little pride to open up to  you and just be me
I made mistakes, we made mistakes but I know I need and want to change to be your B
And I know how much you love me

My days are really hard to understand what do I do, where do I go and who can I give my happy energy to
I get lost in the moments of you being so sweet so supportive and the moments  of seeing you’re gorgeous smile, feeling your warmth and being best friends

The future I envisioned is now missing from my vision, remember I said I want to spend as much of life with you as I can! The small things the big things you have done  to support me, love me and bring me such joy all the worries would dissipate

I know what my errors were and how they continued after promises they wouldn’t. I am human as you are and we often would act or do similar things. We are a lot the same, come on we both cover our eyes during the gruesome parts of moves and TV.

No woman can compare or make me feel how important it was to have you as my girlfriend…an honor actually. I zone out on our super fun days from doing nothing to a beach far away. Then you started beating me in bowling it was still fun and our thing.

I have after searching no happier feeling than making you happy and excel in life. I want to see you fly and reach all the things you thought you couldn’t because I know you cam.

But yes love I am sad, I have to wake up without you and rush to start my day so I don’t stay in bed

They always say time will make these feelings pass. So is it wrong of me to not want them to pass, to not want to love anyone but you?

So maybe it’s you that needs to teach and help me, I’ve spent much time asking everyone but only you know. Or do I?

You know who you are and my wish is we don’t lose each other when finding each other was hard enough.

My company, Gocella, moved offices this week. The elevator wasn’t working. The deliveries did not show up. The internet didn’t work. When Internet doesn’t work you feel like you might never connect to anyone or anything ever again.

I felt lonely. I missed the old office. And I hate change and the fact that I had to move because no clients want to come to New Jersey.

Then I received a call from that someone special, asking me to take a break and meet for a bit outside, “wanna take a walk?” If this were about 12 months ago I would have said I can’t too busy and anxious about getting this move right.

HOWEVER, I VOWED TO MYSELF and her priorities have changed and my personal life and her come first.

Since I made this change, guess what? I have made more success in my life.

I have really been able to embrace the good stuff and enjoy moments I used to let slip by.

So I excused myself from the team and headed out to meet her, we walked a bit and then found a park to just sit in the grass and talk about our day, our weekend plans and just smile at each other.

That sounds like corny BS. But I vowed to myself to be corny…it’s honest.

On a tough day, an entrepreneur needs breaks. The more busy you think you are, the more breaks you need. At least for me this is true.

Gocella is not my first start up but it is the most important company I have ever started…I designed product with a great team that will enhance and innovate the future of direct marketing across mobile and social. The experience of the team behind Gocella is pretty crazy, so crazy I can’t believe the team we have from dev, to tech, to sales, to corporate. I am really blessed.

After a day of my brain being electrocuted, I met my friend Bugsy for a beer and he invited me to the Eminem concert for Gshock. Effin Eminem!

I turned it down and headed home.

Just having a beer with  Bugsy  was a bonus we have been friends for about 19 years. Eminem would’ve lasted one night. Bugsy is my friend for life.

This was truly one of those days to be grateful. You having zero doubts who real friends are. You know when someone really cares, you got to be productive…you stayed inspired and dedicated. If I can have that every day that’s worth a gazillion dollars.

On the drive home there was an accident. Ambulances and police and lights flashing everywhere. My usual 25 minutes was 90 minutes. I switched from Jay Z to classical and some Andrea Bocelli. Wall to wall traffic.

I felt like I was never going to move again.

What a great day.

Dear RIM,

(I hope you will receive this message via social media, since the decision you’re making has important consequences for your customers).

I’m speaking for myself and, to some extent, for all RIM customers. (Naturally, I encourage other customers to voice their own views.)

First, I want to thank you for the work you’ve done to date. I’ve been a loyal RIM customer and a brand ambassador when given the opportunity. Over the past two years, however, I’ve thought many times about switching to an iPhone or another competitor’s device.

While I continue to be happy with some of the features that sold me on you in the first place: amazing email functionality, superior security and your keyboard (I have a Bold 9900, and dig the device), I believe it’s high time RIM provides its customers some new reasons to remain loyal.

There was a great article in the NYT this weekend on Apple’s manufacturing which demonstrated the incredible emphasis Apple has on anticipating consumers’ needs during product development. It would be impossible for an Apple customer to read the article and not feel that Apple cares deeply about their product experience, considering even how their phone’s going to fare when placed in their pocket next to their housekeys. It’s a good read on American manufacturing that also touches on margins, work ethics and more.

http://www.nytimes.com/2012/01/22/business/apple-america-and-a-squeezed-middle-class.html?_r=1&pagewanted=all

I don’t have any special knowledge of RIM’s product development methodology and so can’t make a comparison. If RIM is working in similar fashion to Apple, planning a future with its customers based on their needs, I’d be glad to know about it. The way I see it, RIM and I are and have been in a relationship. I suppose I’m asking what RIM’s commitment to me is and what it’s done for me lately.

Relationships involve getting better at what you’re already really good at, learning what the other person really wants from you and then working on being more of whatever that is. For RIM, this should involve embracing niche markets and developing more of what they want.

I’m not going to give a full list of what I need from RIM right now but there are undoubtedly areas for improvement that benefit us both. These have to include merchant abilities (possibly in the works), a secured merchant app so I can have outside sales reps for my software company accept payments. One new reason why this is important is that Square, one of the most popular services, isn’t available for Blackberry https://help.squareup.com/customer/portal/articles/140388-can-i-use-square-with-my-blackberry- This would really make us both happier. Mobile merchant services is not a bad look considering…

I feel we aren’t communicating well. Maybe you have plans I’m not aware of—things that would allow me to worry less and be more enthusiastic about our future. I know, financially, you’re stressed out right now. Frankly, it’s that way for a lot of companies, so know you’re not alone and you’re in a better place than many others, I’m here to support you for the long haul. However, you can’t ignore that I’ve made plenty of sacrifices to be in this relationship. It’s time for you to reciprocate by making some compromises of your own.

I think it would be cool to see you working on a highly publicized incubator to build enhancements to the Blackberry experience. Make it fun, challenging (independent of your existing culture) and really focus this on utilization of existing customers; score us and the ROI on each of us.

You can’t be everything to everyone, so prioritizing our relationship right now is pretty important. Think beyond startups. Look for mobile companies and software that will really benefit your customers and help them provide products to us (Right now, they’re almost all very focused on Apple IOS and Android, understandably so). When I say “highly publicized,” I don’t mean a reality show, I mean publicized on social media and communicated to me and my friends and then their friends…because that’s how it works. Think Kickstarter concepts for RIM (not literally); source the interest from me, don’t be afraid to ask. You haven’t asked about me in a long time.

Another idea, Vlingo! I used the Christmas credit you gave me (thank you!) so it was free. That was cool because I was already testing the free trial, is there a way to work more closely with them? Are you already doing that? They’re the same company as Siri, right, but I tested Siri and, well, Vlingo needs work but has potential. I would just be cautious on advertising it too soon, I think there’s a way to find out what help Vlingo may need, what challenges they have, and what it would take for Vlingo deliver the best version possible to Blackberry users and then make it happen!

Well RIM you know how to reach me…

Cheers –

Brian Rice

I wake up pretty early everyday (between 4:30 and 5:30) and I used to get a glass of water and start getting ready for work. For a few reasons I “jump into the day” but mainly because I wake with my mind already messing with me and reminding me how much I have to do each day (otherwise known as anxiety).

Also I like getting to the office before everybody to enjoy the silence and organize before the rush of tasks and issues begin.
I was never really crazy about coffee at home because I only knew how to make mud, however my love B she really looks forward to that morning cup of coffee and she also starts her day later than I do because she is better at “The Daily Practice” (by  +james altucher ) than I am.

She enjoys the morning, spends time with our dog Edgar, exercises, and works a bit from home. I am jealous when she tells me later in the evening about her mornings versus mine and she is actually so many times more efficient than I am through the day.

So my goals every morning were to be as quiet as possible and get ready in the dark as well as other parts of the house being as careful as possible not to wake B and Edgar. I thought this was a nice thing to do…

I work quite a bit and I usually think working super hard for about a year allows me to plan a small vacation with B and turn off the world for us but that year started becoming 2 years and the weekends started being work weekends as I took on building new software. So I thought plan bigger and then I can show B how much I love her with a longer vacation next time.

That’s man thinking big things to show big love!!!

So it turns out me sneaking out of the house in the morning was a big deal to B because I wasn’t even really saying good morning or spending just a few minutes with her before the day kicked in. So what I thought was showing love and care was actually showing signs that I wasn’t showing how much my love for her is a priority.

So I decided to learn how to make the greatest cup of coffee possible, adding spices and different creamers to create new flavors for us. Now I will not leave the house until I am ready, have made the coffee and spend some time with B sipping our coffee and either talking or just sitting in bed before I rush out the door.
Making a cup of coffee didn’t seem to be a sign of affection and priorities but as it turns out I was WRONG.

B loves the coffee I make and both our days start out better because of the coffee and those few extra minutes together. This went a long way and really helped me calm my anxieties before rushing off to the office or a meeting. But most importantly I left feeling really loved and appreciated…great way to feel starting a day I must tell you!

That’s woman thinking small things to show big love!!!

I really look forward each morning to perfecting that coffee and carrying it upstairs to B. I must say DD has nothing on my coffee now and my mornings are so pleasant they make my whole day better.

B is my love, my heart, and my best friend, or for music My Best Thing – Usher & Jay Z