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Steve Jobs, we lost one

Posted: October 21, 2011 in Posts
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The honesty and open communication in G+ (from those I follow and that follow me) has been really exciting and inspiring. So I thought I would share a pretty honest story about my morning and the thoughts that came to me this morning as I really took in all the different posts and shares related to the death of Steve Jobs and my own perspective. As well as the song that came to me through this reflection.

“When you combine passion and hard work, then success is always possible.” – Arte Moreno

The loss of Mr. Jobs (a business soldier) hit us all differently and some the same, for me reflection came. I got home to my love last night telling me she is concerned with my work ethic and my health. Thank you B I love you with all my heart and am so grateful you love me and all my insanities.

I have lost friends damn near family large in part due to my work priorities and ethics and no matter why or who was “wrong” or “right” I still miss them, success and money does funny things to relationships sometimes evil whether it’s the gain of wealth and success or the loss of them. Just when you think you’re intentions are good that could only be your perspective.

I quote Jay-z “Everybody wanna know what my Achilles heel is, LOVE I don’t get enough of it”

I woke this morning remembering vividly my Mom’s face and tears when she saw at 17 what I was really selling to pay the mortgage cause dad left, I remembered my best friend’s face when I fired him after 20+ years in each other’s lives. He was right there to watch my Mom cry that day and a big part of the company doing really well during its first 10 years. Damn dude you broke my heart and I was so mad for so long but I hope wherever you are you and your family are doing well. Please respect the truth and find peace.

“I have had all of the disadvantages required for success.” – Larry Ellison

Music Inspires Me – I am 36 and grew up in NYC, I was a DJ in my teens (for weddings, bad bars (think Road House), bar mitzvahs) so I learned to love classical music, pop, rock, all genres but I am a big jazz, blues and hip hop fan. That said my thoughts this morning led me to “Lost Ones” by Jay-z a must listen on the way in I thought.

This entrepreneur thing is not so easy most of the times regardless what some believe but Jobs, Gates, Hughes, Simmons, Jay Z and so many more (imho) all are inspiration to keep fighting and to find the balance. They gave and give it everything they have, their hearts.

“A brand for a company is like a reputation for a person. You earn reputation by trying to do hard things well.”- Jeff Bezos

I was one of many that watched the Stanford speech and then I watched Jobs and Gates during their rare interviews together…Awesome stuff!

Young, dumb, and too proud I turned down 2 exits years ago…if I knew then what I know now well I would’ve sold and been grateful. Didn’t see 2008 coming!

So if when I didn’t accept terms I didn’t really say thank you…A.M.C. and CBC Thank You for your consideration at the time.I follow closely and congratulate all your accomplishments since.

I wish all of them and all of us perseverance and humbleness and success. The troopers that make many sacrifices, the entrepreneurs doing it with heart may we all get to our goals and enjoy our lives…that’s good energy.

The sacrifices, the hours, the heartbreaks, the challenges I wouldn’t have it any other way but the only cost should be time, capital, and yes emotional but not so much friends, family, loved ones, and health.

“Football is like life – it requires perseverance, self-denial, hard work, sacrifice, dedication and respect for authority.” – Vince Lombardi

So again thank you to those that pave the way, that falter in the public eye for the sake of others to learn from their mistakes, that consider our futures as they innovate, that can affect so many from their own accomplishments, that are willing to give it all for the many rewards and challenges that come from success and sacrifice.

So to my Love, my Mom, to all my family, my friends that support me to Steve Jobs, Bill Gates, Bill Clinton, Howard Hughes, Eminem, Ray Charles, Shawn (Jay-z) Carter, +Larry Page , +Sergey Brin , +Mark Zuckerberg, the G+ers and so many more on my list that inspire, make me challenge myself, and work with heart Thank You.

Have a good day. – Brian

I am not that kind of crazy, I am the other kind of crazy…

Posted: October 20, 2011 in Posts
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Sometimes I really feel like I am losing my mind whether it’s based upon my decision making process, being locked away to long working on UEX or analytical media planning, or making the right decisions to grow my companies and my investments.

I doubt I am alone, in fact I know this as I have met with many patients and doctors as well I reference Eminem’s Talkin’ T Myself.

I have been “working” with frontal lobe damage since I was a teen, at times in my career since 18 I have thought wow this is the gift and the curse, and this is my uniqueness, my edge. Other times I felt the need to hide in my home or retreat to a far off place to hide from responsibilities I wasn’t at the times prepared for but was the most monumental to an entrepreneur. And at other times I hid from mirrors because I felt I lost touch with the me outside of my work. This I learned happens to quite a bit of business owners that started careers so young, never went to college, or had to help support a lot more than themselves either spiritually or financially.

Most importantly each time I hit the “edge” I found my real friends, the people that really cared, I hit goals I never dreamed possible for me, and I was able to seek advice from smart caring doctors (traditional and nontraditional) that made sure I knew I was not alone. Unfortunately some of those times I was to close to the “edge” and really needed to take a break for mental and physical health reasons.
Now at 36 and making major changes to my businesses and what I do for business I realize I am able to do more and help more largely due to the scary relationship between me and my brain. However there are so many days I need to remember I am not alone.

I have made it quite evident I am a hip hop fan since I was 10 years old (NYC baby) and Eminem is some music that also has really helped me realize I am not alone in these issues and yes they are issues that can be used for the greater good of myself and others. So I added a song I listen to often (especially on the drive into the office).

There is so much more behind all of the above but well the reason I am posting this is I met a new friend digitally and now outside of the digital space. He and his writings have helped me so much and meeting him happened honestly because of a conversation in G+.

It was awesome to know he was such a real person, his writings were sincere, honest, and his intentions are whole hearted. You know who you are sir…Thank you my man!

Beautiful life is around all of us and inside all of us finding it can be stressful, painful, and scary BUT each time we find that beauty we reach new levels of self that are so positive and so humbling.

Beauty can be and is defined differently by each of us but either way we define it NEVER stop seeking it out and attempting to create that Beauty!

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