I am not that kind of crazy, I am the other kind of crazy…

Posted: October 20, 2011 in Posts
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Sometimes I really feel like I am losing my mind whether it’s based upon my decision making process, being locked away to long working on UEX or analytical media planning, or making the right decisions to grow my companies and my investments.

I doubt I am alone, in fact I know this as I have met with many patients and doctors as well I reference Eminem’s Talkin’ T Myself.

I have been “working” with frontal lobe damage since I was a teen, at times in my career since 18 I have thought wow this is the gift and the curse, and this is my uniqueness, my edge. Other times I felt the need to hide in my home or retreat to a far off place to hide from responsibilities I wasn’t at the times prepared for but was the most monumental to an entrepreneur. And at other times I hid from mirrors because I felt I lost touch with the me outside of my work. This I learned happens to quite a bit of business owners that started careers so young, never went to college, or had to help support a lot more than themselves either spiritually or financially.

Most importantly each time I hit the “edge” I found my real friends, the people that really cared, I hit goals I never dreamed possible for me, and I was able to seek advice from smart caring doctors (traditional and nontraditional) that made sure I knew I was not alone. Unfortunately some of those times I was to close to the “edge” and really needed to take a break for mental and physical health reasons.
Now at 36 and making major changes to my businesses and what I do for business I realize I am able to do more and help more largely due to the scary relationship between me and my brain. However there are so many days I need to remember I am not alone.

I have made it quite evident I am a hip hop fan since I was 10 years old (NYC baby) and Eminem is some music that also has really helped me realize I am not alone in these issues and yes they are issues that can be used for the greater good of myself and others. So I added a song I listen to often (especially on the drive into the office).

There is so much more behind all of the above but well the reason I am posting this is I met a new friend digitally and now outside of the digital space. He and his writings have helped me so much and meeting him happened honestly because of a conversation in G+.

It was awesome to know he was such a real person, his writings were sincere, honest, and his intentions are whole hearted. You know who you are sir…Thank you my man!

Beautiful life is around all of us and inside all of us finding it can be stressful, painful, and scary BUT each time we find that beauty we reach new levels of self that are so positive and so humbling.

Beauty can be and is defined differently by each of us but either way we define it NEVER stop seeking it out and attempting to create that Beauty!

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